6 January 2014
Aloha! Today I have been working on a new look for the blog; simple is always what I'm after and I've achieved something that I really like! That, up top is my own handwriting, and you'll have to scroll below to marvel at my amazing html skills (read: not very amazing).
If you hadn't already noticed, it is now 2014! On New Years Eve I actually wrote in my diary that I didn't have any New Year's resolutions apart from 1) follow my instincts and 2) do what makes my heart happy. Last year, I did make resolutions. I didn't exactly follow them to a tee throughout the year, but rather subconsciously I followed them; put them to the back of my mind and when I needed a little boost, I'd remind myself what I'd aimed for this year, and to keep at it.
This year, I don't want to make the usual New Year's resolutions that you see (and I sometimes condone): 'Eat healthier', 'Loose weight and exercise more' etc, etc. I find it to be so unrealistic, and rather than making myself enjoy life more, the resolutions just make me feel restrained and disappointed. So, the past few years I've liked to make my resolutions partly vague and a bit more interesting. So, albeit a few days late, here are my 'resolutions' (not promises or constraints, merely a guide to how I want to live life) for 2014:
One. Write more. This was one of my resolutions for last year, and in the past few weeks I have written more school unrelated things than I have for most of last year. So, I reckon that's off to a very good start. Last year I was pretty good at writing at least a few times a week in my journal, about things that have been happening and whatever comes to my mind, what is frustrating me, what I'm glad about, etc; basically letting my emotions spill out on the page, so I will definitely keep up at that because it makes me happy. Also, I don't want to share my writing (unrelated to my diary) to anyone, or if anyone, probably just my sister. I find that I really want to make it a personal thing and have it as something to explore and develop my writing style instead of showing work to people and them criticizing me (I know constructive criticism is good and all that jazz, but to me, it just makes me not want to write anymore on it).
Two. Not care about what anyone thinks. Now, this is a tough one, because at some stage you're going to have thoughts come into your brain comparing yourself to other people, bringing yourself down, thinking a million things about how other people view you. In the end, the only person that matters is you, because you're going to have to live with yourself for the rest of your life. I want to become a little more selfish when needed (because again, it's important to like yourself and not care about others that bring you down or you don't want in your life). My confidence in many ways is already developing, and I want to continue feeling great about myself.
Three. Read more. I really don't read as much as I could, mainly because of social media being so bloody distracting, but I'm going to make an effort to read a whole heap this year, even if it's trying out a book I see on a shelf of the library that looks interesting. Writers become better when they read more, and reading passes the time in between school and homework and boring stuff like that, so it's a win-win.
Four. Enjoy the little things. Like lying in bed on a Saturday morning, drinking the most delicious smoothie ever, staying up late watching movies and eating chocolate, buying your favourite magazine and reading it, getting a ton of books out from the library to read over the holidays, going outside for a twenty minute walk. I always record good things that have happened in my life, and have since more than a year ago, even if it's the most basic thing as 'Mum making my favourite dinner'; when it all adds up you realize you're a very lucky person just to have those little things. I want to concentrate on those little things this year, and without sounding cliche (I am), appreciate the little things rather than the big things, and if/when those big things happen, then that's an added bonus in my mind.
Five. Work hard. Every time I work hard on something, e.g. finish a successful week/term/year at school, even re-do and clean my whole bedroom, or go for a long and tiring walk, I feel really good afterwards that I've achieved something, and that I know I've worked hard to complete it. School is really a love/hate relationship for me; undoubtedly school is going to be my no.1 focus this year because it's my last year of high school (wtf?). If I'm having a really bad day or a bad week I need to remember that if I stick at it, grit my teeth, and get on with it, I'll finish it and feel a billion times better afterwards than if I didn't do it at all.
Six. Spend lots of time alone, and spend lots of time doing nothing. By 'nothing' I mean nothing of importance, but something that makes me happy regardless. I love spending time alone. It's my favourite time. I'd go insane without it. I need to be alone to gather my thoughts, think things through, write, read, listen to music, draw or paint, have a bath, whatever. Spending time alone allows me to not get too bound up in what's happening in life and just take a look back on everything that's happening, and feel sad or happy about it.
Thanks for reading if you got this far, and thank you for the last few months of supporting my blog if you have, and/or commenting/following. I really do appreciate every comment and follow.
Here's to an amazing 2014.
© emma etc